MY PRAYER (Girl version)

This is one of my latest favorite songs-My prayer (Devotion). Just change the subject into "He" instead of "She"...girl version.  (Don't own this vid and song;cr goes to the real owner)


Dear god,
I know that he's out there...the one I'm suppose to share my whole life with.
And in time...you'll show him to me.
Will you take care of him,  comfort him, and protect him...until that day we Meet.
And let him know...my heart...is beating with him.

In a dream I hold you close
Embracing you with my hands
You gazed at me with eyes full of love
And made me understand

That I was meant to share it with you
My heart my mind my soul
Then I open my eyes
And all I see reality shows I'm alone

But I know someday that you'll be by my side
Cause I know god's just waiting till the time is right

God will you keep him safe from the thunderstorm
When the day's cold will you keep him warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine him the way
God will you let him know that I love him so
When there's no one there that he's not alone
Just close his eyes and let him know
My heart is beating with him

So I prayed until that day (prayed until that day)
When our hearts will beat as one (when our hearts hearts will beat as one)
I will wait so patiently (patiently)
For that day to come (for that day to come)

I know someday that you'll be by my side
Cause I know god's just waiting till the time is right

God will you keep him safe from the thunderstorm
When the day's cold will you keep him warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine him the way (shine him the way)
God will you let him  know that I love him so
When there's no one there that he's' not alone
Just close his eyes and let him know
My heart is beating with him

Is beating with him
My heart is beating with him
It's beating with him

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day's cold will you keep him warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine him the way
God will you let him know that I love him so
When there's no one there that he's not alone
Just close his eyes and let him know
My heart is beating with him

Oh~~~ it's beating with him

 (it's beating with yours)

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FORSAKEN

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I can't fix my thoughts.
I'm  so confuse.
I've felt this emotion
so many times before.
I don't know what's really going on.

*
I cry a river
as  one of my ways to be relieved
I try to smile
even  if I'm hurting deep inside
I try to live
even if I feel like I'm dying
I sleep a lot
coz somehow it's one of my escape.
All of this could be a test of faith.
But what  if I can't hold firmly to it?

**
I'm getting weary again,
Can't push myself to the limit.
Feels like I'm just being lazy.
Can't find the goodness in me.
Sometimes it's hard to breath and live.
Feels like I'm drowning.
Am I forsaken?

II

Am I kind?Some say yes
but some are mistaking it.
I always feel that many hates me
but maybe it's only me
hating myself  the most.
I somehow thinks I'm the modern Judas.
I don't know...


REPEAT * AND **

III

Lord,You say You understand
exactly what I'm feelin'.
So You know so well that
I feel ashamed,feel forsaken
feel so low.It makes me blue.
I feel like nothing,feels like I'm always wrong.
And I feel like abandoned,
always subject of rejection
and rude discrimination.
You know well how weak I am.
They think I'm weird.
These making me tired.
Lord,let me find my rest in You.

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I

Photo taken from internet.

I.


I wonder how you see me for the first time.
Maybe  you hate me then learn to like me
as day passes by.Why would I even care?

You're the kind that's easy to deal with.
While you might find me so hard to handle.
Complicated.Yes,maybe I'm  complicated.

*
I wonder if I truly know myself well
or I'm still a stranger of who really I am.

***
I wake up hopeful when the sun rises up.
But I lose hope as the sun sets down.
I write when I want to express.
I dream when I want to escape.
I cry when I don't know what to do.
I listen to music if I'm feeling blue.
I dance like crazy when I'm all alone.
I eat when I'm stressed.I walk when I'm mad.
I pray to speak my heart out to God
and to remind me of who I am.
This is me.Are we the same?
Or do you still find me weird?

II

I'm a small shy girl in a big unashamed world.
I'm a very ordinary girl in this runway like crowd.
I have no special talent.Don't even have the charm.
Wasn't born with a golden spoon in  my mouth.
I knew no sports at all.I'm always the jinx.
Now call me a dork.
I'm not funny neither bubbly.
My sense of humor is sometimes weird.

**
But if you see something special in me
that means you're special to me.
And I'll do everything to take care of you.

repeat ***

I lay on the floor when I'm confuse.
La la la la la la la la la la la la la
that's what I can only say when I don't know what to say.
You might get annoyed in my long silence.
You'll chase your breath 'coz I talk too fast.
Don't make me nervous 'coz it would speed up.
But I like who I am.My weaknesses & my strengths.
I may  not be like the other.
But I'm not afraid to walk away from the place
where I don't feel I belong.
La la la la la la la life is good.

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You're the Light and Life

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I used to like myself
but then I wonder why
suddenly I don't like who I am.
I turned to be so shy.
Where my confidence have gone?
I might have lose it along the rocky road.
Somebody show me the light.

*
Is it enough to be good?
Is it enough to  be kind?
Maybe it's not for the crowd
but it's a lot for You,O,God.
I don't need to be Somebody else
so please Lord,renew my mind and my heart.
That's what I really need.
You're the only light that leads to true life.
Because You're the Light and Life

II

I hate why I easily cry.
Can't help to show I'm weak.
How many times I get so tired.
But never think of ending my life.
I just like to dream of paradise.
And run to the world of escape.
But ain't enough.Still I'm not satisfied.
Why won't You let me see You,Lord.
I wanna see You beside me.

III

I don't know if I'm pretending or just being true.
Whatever is blocking You to my heart
I surrender my free will to You.
You've the greatest power &  I don't have.
So You can defeat my stubborn heart.

**
Come upon me.Fill me with Your Love.
I'm tired of being paralyze.
Move me or You move my Lord.

**
I need You in my life.
Because this life comes from You.
You're more than what I don't have.
My heart  beats with You
so it will only find rest until I rest in You.
My Way.My Truth.And my Life.

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