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I wonder how you see me for the first time.
Maybe  you hate me then learn to like me
as day passes by.Why would I even care?

You're the kind that's easy to deal with.
While you might find me so hard to handle.
Complicated.Yes,maybe I'm  complicated.

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I wonder if I truly know myself well
or I'm still a stranger of who really I am.

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I wake up hopeful when the sun rises up.
But I lose hope as the sun sets down.
I write when I want to express.
I dream when I want to escape.
I cry when I don't know what to do.
I listen to music if I'm feeling blue.
I dance like crazy when I'm all alone.
I eat when I'm stressed.I walk when I'm mad.
I pray to speak my heart out to God
and to remind me of who I am.
This is me.Are we the same?
Or do you still find me weird?

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I'm a small shy girl in a big unashamed world.
I'm a very ordinary girl in this runway like crowd.
I have no special talent.Don't even have the charm.
Wasn't born with a golden spoon in  my mouth.
I knew no sports at all.I'm always the jinx.
Now call me a dork.
I'm not funny neither bubbly.
My sense of humor is sometimes weird.

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But if you see something special in me
that means you're special to me.
And I'll do everything to take care of you.

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I lay on the floor when I'm confuse.
La la la la la la la la la la la la la
that's what I can only say when I don't know what to say.
You might get annoyed in my long silence.
You'll chase your breath 'coz I talk too fast.
Don't make me nervous 'coz it would speed up.
But I like who I am.My weaknesses & my strengths.
I may  not be like the other.
But I'm not afraid to walk away from the place
where I don't feel I belong.
La la la la la la la life is good.

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Thank You for Holding On

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After being blind for a long time ago,
my sight is  getting clearer.Now I'm starting to see you.
You've been longing for me for a long time
but I'm acting such a fool.
You're the only One who truly understands my pains.
So grateful that you've been patient to me.

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You know me so well that there's nothing I can hide from You.
You touch my heart so differently.
You're the air that I breathe,reason why I live.
Everything I need is You.
Thank You for holding on,my Lord.

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I love  how you remain so calm when I'm in commotion.
And how you save me from my troubles.
You never change even when I turned to be so complicated.
I was  dying for a long time  from feeling so all alone.
Feels like my soul is paralyzed.
But there You are,always by my side.
but I'm too worried to realize.It's You.
Only you can do all these things to me.

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Merciful,Full of grace,Unchanging,Everlasting Lord.
Thank you for choosing me
and I'm sorry for the pains
I've put you through.
Let Your flesh be my bread.
and let me drink  Your cup of blood.
'coz it's only in union with You
that I become complete and find everlasting joy and peace.

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