FORSAKEN

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I can't fix my thoughts.
I'm  so confuse.
I've felt this emotion
so many times before.
I don't know what's really going on.

*
I cry a river
as  one of my ways to be relieved
I try to smile
even  if I'm hurting deep inside
I try to live
even if I feel like I'm dying
I sleep a lot
coz somehow it's one of my escape.
All of this could be a test of faith.
But what  if I can't hold firmly to it?

**
I'm getting weary again,
Can't push myself to the limit.
Feels like I'm just being lazy.
Can't find the goodness in me.
Sometimes it's hard to breath and live.
Feels like I'm drowning.
Am I forsaken?

II

Am I kind?Some say yes
but some are mistaking it.
I always feel that many hates me
but maybe it's only me
hating myself  the most.
I somehow thinks I'm the modern Judas.
I don't know...


REPEAT * AND **

III

Lord,You say You understand
exactly what I'm feelin'.
So You know so well that
I feel ashamed,feel forsaken
feel so low.It makes me blue.
I feel like nothing,feels like I'm always wrong.
And I feel like abandoned,
always subject of rejection
and rude discrimination.
You know well how weak I am.
They think I'm weird.
These making me tired.
Lord,let me find my rest in You.