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I wonder how you see me for the first time.
Maybe  you hate me then learn to like me
as day passes by.Why would I even care?

You're the kind that's easy to deal with.
While you might find me so hard to handle.
Complicated.Yes,maybe I'm  complicated.

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I wonder if I truly know myself well
or I'm still a stranger of who really I am.

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I wake up hopeful when the sun rises up.
But I lose hope as the sun sets down.
I write when I want to express.
I dream when I want to escape.
I cry when I don't know what to do.
I listen to music if I'm feeling blue.
I dance like crazy when I'm all alone.
I eat when I'm stressed.I walk when I'm mad.
I pray to speak my heart out to God
and to remind me of who I am.
This is me.Are we the same?
Or do you still find me weird?

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I'm a small shy girl in a big unashamed world.
I'm a very ordinary girl in this runway like crowd.
I have no special talent.Don't even have the charm.
Wasn't born with a golden spoon in  my mouth.
I knew no sports at all.I'm always the jinx.
Now call me a dork.
I'm not funny neither bubbly.
My sense of humor is sometimes weird.

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But if you see something special in me
that means you're special to me.
And I'll do everything to take care of you.

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I lay on the floor when I'm confuse.
La la la la la la la la la la la la la
that's what I can only say when I don't know what to say.
You might get annoyed in my long silence.
You'll chase your breath 'coz I talk too fast.
Don't make me nervous 'coz it would speed up.
But I like who I am.My weaknesses & my strengths.
I may  not be like the other.
But I'm not afraid to walk away from the place
where I don't feel I belong.
La la la la la la la life is good.

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You're the Light and Life

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I used to like myself
but then I wonder why
suddenly I don't like who I am.
I turned to be so shy.
Where my confidence have gone?
I might have lose it along the rocky road.
Somebody show me the light.

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Is it enough to be good?
Is it enough to  be kind?
Maybe it's not for the crowd
but it's a lot for You,O,God.
I don't need to be Somebody else
so please Lord,renew my mind and my heart.
That's what I really need.
You're the only light that leads to true life.
Because You're the Light and Life

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I hate why I easily cry.
Can't help to show I'm weak.
How many times I get so tired.
But never think of ending my life.
I just like to dream of paradise.
And run to the world of escape.
But ain't enough.Still I'm not satisfied.
Why won't You let me see You,Lord.
I wanna see You beside me.

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I don't know if I'm pretending or just being true.
Whatever is blocking You to my heart
I surrender my free will to You.
You've the greatest power &  I don't have.
So You can defeat my stubborn heart.

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Come upon me.Fill me with Your Love.
I'm tired of being paralyze.
Move me or You move my Lord.

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I need You in my life.
Because this life comes from You.
You're more than what I don't have.
My heart  beats with You
so it will only find rest until I rest in You.
My Way.My Truth.And my Life.

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