LORD I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

There's emptiness in my life and I keep searching,
searching for the lost pieces of this incomplete puzzle.
Do I really know where I'm going?
Am I really doing what is right?
I'm confused.

Lord,I always think of You
but I'm feeling that I'm  not doing
something special for You.
You've sacrifice for me
but why it's easier for me to waste my time
doing crazy things for the person I admire
or things that I so much like
than spending all my time for You?

Lord,I know You'll forgive me of my trespasses
but I lose my self esteem because of my sins.
I wonder where my confidence have gone.
I've been through a lot because of You
but why it seems I still remain a fool.
What point am I missing in following You?

Lord,I don't know what to do.
I'm not sure where am I heading to
but I know You exactly knew.
I'm tired of living this way.
How will I free myself from this?
I'm a slave of my emotions,
so hard to conquer my fears.
Lord,I don't know what to do.

I know Your  Words give Life.
I've witnessed it when I see the light
as I learn to read Your Words.
I tried so hard to live in them
but I keep comparing myself to others,
thinking I should do extraordinary big things
to please You,
forgetting the small things I could have done for You.
I feel so stupid.My heart is burning
but my flesh is getting colder and colder.

Lord,have mercy on me, Your little girl
for I keep on straying myself.
I know I'm unworthy but don't give up on me please.
I know I might be confused now
but one thing I'm sure about,
to be with You in paradise is all my heart's desire.