MY ESCAPE

This world that's craving for perfection

Makes me feel that I don't fit in.

In this crowd fan of bandwagon

Being different is a sin.

There were days I wish  I'll just find a hidden wardrobe 

and as I open it Narnians are waiting for me.

Or maybe I'll just see an orb

a strike can take me to Neverland

then I can fly with Peter Pan.

This makes me wanna run away

to a different world

and the portal is through my sleep

My fantasy is my escape

I'm in a different world when I daydream.

I tried to be the author of my own story

In that world I fit in.

But sometimes I wish I could knock on heaven's door.

I just wanna go home.This is my escape

The real world has caused me so much pain.

Some people are unfair.

I'm trying to be real but I feel rejected.

Now scared to show the real me.

I guess it would make sense If I just pretend.

But still the same.

If I'm good,I'm being misunderstood

If I'm bad,I'm being cursed.

It's never enough.

Is it only me who feel this way,

wanting to be like by many?

Sometimes I'm tired of doing things alone.

I'm crying,deep inside I'm dying

Feels like this world is choking me.

It's just so hard to breath.

Seems so hard to live.

The more I care about all the things they said

the more I get frustrated.

I know I make mistakes and I'm open to changes.

But doesn't mean I'm not gonna make a stand.

I won't let them drift me away.

I'd rather be called a weird than a cookie-cutter.

Dear Lord You know my heart.

Here I am,Your daughter,a sinner.

You know my deepest cries.

Who else will know me better?

It's You alone my Creator.

How can I forgot that it's You 

that I should be pleasing?

It's what You say that matters most.

Dearest Lord,You show me my weakness.

You turn my sorrow as strength so I could also lift the weak.

I should learn to forgive myself because You have forgiven me.

If following You means living a set apart life

then I shouldn't fear being a misfit in this world.

I'll just run to You and with You I can face whatever comes along the way.

No more escaping from the pains of this world.