HIS LITTLE LADY

I'm a  bad girl in my own different way.

Ask people who know me

I doubt they have lots of good things to say.

I know my weaknesses because my Lord shows 

them to me.

He keeps on revealing them that they've 

caused so much pains in my heart.

It hurts more than stabs from a knife.

For sure He knows exactly how many times I 

cried.

Seems like my Lord is so hard to understand.

They say He loves me but why I feel 

abandoned from His love?

He says I'm His child,can He really hear 

His daughters cry?

I get so weak,why I have to weep like 

this?

There were times I'd just like to escape and 

run away from Him.

There were times I'm thinking of flying away 

with that fallen angel.

He knows my desires too and he's willing to 

give them all to me.

Unlike my Lord,He won't let me get all I want.

I was about to get away but I hear a loud voice.

That's my Lord calling out my name.

I cried my heart out to Him,

telling Him how disappointed I am.

Confessing I get jealous to those girls who 

 easily understand Him.

I say "Father,I'm selfish because I just want Your full attention on me.

I feel like You love them more than You love me because 

 I've hurt you so many times.They have everything I'm always longing for."

Then He hold my hands and take me away from that fallen angel.

I dropped myself on the floor and I saw Him kneel before me.

He wipes away my tears and He cries as He says this

"Am I not enough for You,my dearest child?"

I see the flashback of my life and realize how far my God has been carrying me.

Now I'm so ashamed of these pains.

Kneeling before me is the King of all Kings who is all pure and never sin.

I ask for His forgiveness and He says,

 "I have forgiven You  long time ago.It's time you forgive yourself too."

I stare at Him.He stands up and reach His hand to me.

With a smile on His face,

 "Let's go my little lady,I've prepared a feast for you."